I write about scary
stuff. It’s what I do.
What I’ve never
written about is the time I almost saw
a ghost.
This ethereal manifestation
happened in the basement of my parent’s home, where I was living with my middle
brother. The basement was a surprisingly large space for a middle-class rambler
with a detached garage. An orange metal, gas-fueled fireplace burned in one
corner. A rather longish bar ran along the opposite wall. I don’t remember if
my father made it or it came with the house. Didn’t matter. To teenagers
nearing the legal drinking age, it was cool.
It was the late 70s, and
our paternal grandfather (we called him Pipi) had passed away. His death hadn’t
been entirely unexpected, but it still hurt. Illness is first a wound, and then
a scab. You get accustomed to it. I think the word is habituated.
Eventually, though, death
comes along like a bully and rips the scab off in great bloody hunks. The wound
is once again exposed again, raw and throbbing. You wince. You cry. You shake
your head in wonder. Then, gradually, you start to heal for good.
Time had passed since
our grandfather’s passing. The hurt had faded. Instead of a sharp, agonizing pain,
it had become a dull, warm ache. On the night of the sighting, my brother and I
were in our beds. He slept across from the stairway that led to the upper level.
I shared wall space with the fireplace. While I cannot remember exactly what
time this happened, I believe it was still early in the night. Somewhere
between eleven and midnight, perhaps? Pretty close to the witching hour, which
kind of makes sense.
Sleep had yet to claim
me when I heard my brother call my name.
I rolled over to face
him. He appeared little more than a black lump in the dark. “What?”
“You’re not going to
believe this.”
“Believe what?”
“It’s Pipi.”
I closed my eyes.
Really, you want to talk about him now? “Can’t this wait until tomorrow? I’m
tired.”
“No, I mean it’s him,” he whispered. “Here’s here, sitting
on the stairs.”
My brother is pretty much
fearless. Nothing frightens him. Today, he’s a thirty-year police veteran who
has worked as an undercover narcotics officer, did stints with S.W.A.T., and
completed the FBI’s National Academy Training Program. He’s as bad as a badass
can get. He’s been that way since we were young.
So when I heard the
unease in his voice, I knew he had seen something.
My heart started to race.
“Not funny,” I told
him. Not the best comeback, but it was all I had.
“Get over here. You
gotta see this.”
Nope. Not a good idea.
Wasn’t going to do it. I pulled the covers over my head.
“Did you hear me?” he
asked.
“Go back to sleep.
You’re seeing things.”
“He’s sitting on the
stairs waving at me!”
Waving? That didn’t sound
scary. I lowered the sheet and looked toward the dark stairwell. From the angle
of my bed, I couldn’t see up the stairs. “You’re not messing with me, are you?”
“Hurry up!” he hissed.
“I think he’s starting to fade.”
I hesitated. I had
loved my Pipi. He’d been such a big part of my life that his passing had left
me floundering. But as I said, time had passed. The healing had started. Did I
want to rip open that wound again?
Could I be that brave?
My brother’s
exasperation grew. “Dammit, Brian! What are you waiting for?”
I had missed my
grandfather so much. Did I want to start missing him all over again?
That’s when I found
out I could be brave.
I rolled over and
faced the wall.
My brother didn’t say
another word. Soon the ghost faded. That there was a ghost I’ve never doubted. And
I don’t begrudge my brother for having his final goodbye to our grandfather.
It just wasn’t the
right thing for me.
That was the time I almost saw a ghost.
And I didn’t, because
of love.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Brian W. Matthews’s latest book is The Conveyance, a horror/science fiction novel about a child therapist who uncovers a secret long kept hidden form the world. Together with his friend, police detective Frank Swinicki, he doggedly follows a trail of murder and madness, eventually exposing a sinister conspiracy that threatens the existence of the human race. The Conveyance can be purchased directly from the publisher at www.journalstone.com or from Amazon.
Let me introduce myself. I was born at age 34, under the writing pen of Georges Ugeux. Georges saw me as an assertive, beautiful and sensitive Chinese woman. I believe that Georges has truly captured some of the complexities of my personality – qualities of which I am very proud. I often feel that he is so perceptive, he even uncovers some of my vulnerabilities in a way that I am not always aware of in the moment. It isn’t often one meets a man that understands such a complicated woman. I very much like what he has written about me – he has even given me great companions in the story.